我是不是一个透明的人？

当我写这个entry 的时候，我是带有一点气和失望。。为什么？ 因为我气。我是不是在你们的眼里， 我是一个透明的人吗？为什么我会这么说， 因为今天就发生在我身上。。

Joey -当你一直sms问我在那里？我几时下去Mdc? 我一个人去吃饭啊? 我读一一回答你的问题。。可是， 你来到Mdc recept, 你只是跟我say "Hi"， 然后就一直跟Grace 讲话。你是当我透明的，才是在利用我？你有没有想到我的感受？我是一个活生生的人。。我有感觉的。。 我不是透明的。。一个两个三个这么close, hold hands,take close pictures & so on.. Please...I rather choice to walk in the front & dun want see all those things.. I rather let u all sit together, I stand up & dun want to sit with u all...我可以选择，我愿意离你们远一点。。　

不用紧，我在多忍3 weeks, after 21/06/2008 last gathering with Qiuting.. Qiuting freedom, me also freedom.. I can dun need to see all this transparent treatment.. And If those who still want to keep contact with me, I will always welcome.. But if those who want to unforgetful person.. I also dun care.. Cos I really tired & get hurt alot & cried alot..

我的付出就到21/06/2008, what I had promise any of u the past 3 mths.. I had already done my best to do for u all.. No matter is Qiuting or Lovelies fans...I believe that I had never break any of my promise to anyone of u.. Even how many times, I had fall down.. I still all handle myself.. No one help me.. Have u all think of in my shoe?No right? Just only other peoples.. Never mind.. Whatever....

**最后的感想：我想对Qiuting 说的是，就算现在我没有工作，我才是有骨气& 义气，我才是会帮你打电话。我才是帮你做好全部在21/06/2008..30/05/2008，我会帮你带你的fans上去，　我就是不要去。。因为我不想再被当透明。。The feeling is very miserable...Do u know that? When u drop my bag, I told u, are u unhappy with me? Then, u said Sorry & pick up my bag, cos that time I already unhappy with something. When ur hand put on top my shoulder, i believe u already know that I was angry.. That why, when I turn my head to u, ur hand put down my shoulder..
I dun like ppl treat me Transparent.. It is not the 1st time.. Sick of it..Now, know why I dun like to see Qiuting report & wait for her come out? Cos I dun want to be a transparent person...