在我的心里面， 我最爱的第１个宝贝。。

当我写这个最后的entry 的时候， 是我想该把我心里面的话， 说出来了。。 以上第１　个是我的宝贝；

Qiuting (AiAi, QQ, Ah Teng,Aunty, Bong Cha Cha,Margaret Ma) - 这6个nickname 都是她叫我这样叫她的。。她也给了我很多nickname - (Joey Maria, Qin Qin, Emo Q, PA, Manager, Fortune Teller & Joey Ma), 这些我都一一的记在心里，脑海里。。 我们从07/02/2008 到现在已经认识了快4个月了。。我们分享了很多东西，开心和不开心的。。全都在我心里面。。我才记得开始的时候，你告诉我，从小没有很多人喜欢你。I still remember what I had told u, "Remember that I can make everyone like u, tat why I decide to open a fans club for u. And nth is possible, if u never try it.. And I had proof to u.. I make it for u..Now, u got alot fans like u, I also happy for u. And everything is going to come to the end.. And I also told myself, I will make something for Lovelies fans as a memoeries. It is from my own pocket $.. I dun care whether got how many fans apprecaite of the things I do & done for them? They can dun like me, they can hate me.. But I keep telling myself, I had really done my best for Lovelies fans & Qiuting..

Today, when I share my feeling with Minghui, I really cried in front of him.. Cos I told him, I Love Q & Lovelies fans every much.. I had done so much for fc, but how many fans know that? Even those never join fc like Mei Hoon & her friends, I was really glad to know them as friends.. Cos they really had help me to cheers for QQ, when at event.. Mei Hoon, thanks for just now cheer me up & thanks for know that I a nice person.. Cos starting u thought tat I was a fierce person.. But at the end, u know that I was not.. I just everytimes act Cool at Mdc..Haha.. Dun worry, the Joey is a strong gal, won't easy falldown.. Even I broke, I still have to do my last things for fc & Q...I dun need anyone help me in my cash flow..我是有骨气的人。。

每次你要我帮忙，如我能做到，我一定我尽我的能力，去做，去帮你。。。我都没有向你投诉。。因为你一直叫我JoeyMa, JoeyMa一定有办法做到。JoeyMa always make U SHINE in "Live" show & Roadshow.. Even how much I sick, I still 坚持到底。。Dun let u see my sickness.. Specially when I want to vomit..How many peoples know that? I just keep quiet..Use banner to cover my face.. Never mind, I let everyone hate me, I also want U to hate me. Cos I not worthy for u to Love me..

可是，今天我听到God告诉我，为什么我要这样做？为什么要让自己这么痛苦？我告诉God, Cos I LOVE QIUTING VERY MUCH AS FRIEND. I ALSO LOVE LOVELIES FANS. BUT HOW MANY PEOPLES KNOW? SO, I CHOICE TO BE A BAD GAL.. 可是，　最后我发觉我真的是在欺骗自己的。。口不对心，口事心非。。真的，要我做一个坏人，　好难。。　我骗不了Qiuting, 因为我的眼神出卖我了。。

最后，我想把我心里面的话，说出来，Qiuting, Sorry if I had said anything wrong to me.. All I do that, just I want to let u hate me..But I never mean it.. Cos I really & treasure alot of u as my best friend.. What I want to say to u, already in the card.. Hope the Chocoz will brighten ur day.. Cos u said Chocoz Chocolate can brighten up ur day. Until now, I still remember it.. JoeyMa, still love u so much. No matter, how much things I try to make u hate me.. Inside my HEART, U R MY NOS 1. NO ONE CAN REPLACE IT.. 21/06, I will do nicely for U & Lovelies.. And it is the day for me to thanks everyone.. What I want to say, I already write down.. Take Care..

I want to see the happy QQ, I know 3mths ago.. Cos this 2 day, I see ur face like not happy.. I dun like to see tat..When will I had the chance to see it again?

JoeyMa Love Margaret Ma 4ever & deeply inside my heart.. I will never forget those place we had go for meal before.. This few days, I keep going there...