付出多少，有谁知道？

当我写这个文章的时候，我只想把一些心里的话，讲出来。　只想对Qiuting 一个人讲。。当我写这个文章的时候，是哭着的。。一面听“祝我生日快乐”& "想说"的歌。。

[1]有多少人知道我为打电话voting, 花了多少的钱？如果要我说，我一个月的新水。。有多少的朋友为一个朋友打这么多的电话呢？Grace or ur fans club members, how much they can call for voting? They all told me, ask me help them call, then they passed me the $.. Like Delphina & Chengying, they can call onli 10. Cos they student.. I understand.. I also don't blame them.. At least, Qiuting Lovelies Fans all done our best for call for voting..

[2]Qiuting, do u know that before the "Live" show, I 5pm plus, sms all u fans & ur frez (those who had come down & support u before, asked them to call for u & voting.. I really had done my best & part as ur best friend. I all the while never let u down & disappointed..

[3]Finance Prombles - 就算我现在面对finance prombles. Cos I had submit my resign letter & want to leave this office by end of this end.. And the company want me to pay for loss of $, 我才是不会放弃，为你打电话。。我现在2 hp bill is $600 plus.. I just settle my 3rd nos bills, 你知道吗？你不知道。。　因为我不要让你胆心。。

[4]为你而想－也许，你会觉得Grace is better than me.. But u never know that I had always thinking for u & her.. Do u find that now I seldom go down Mediacorp see u report & wait for u come out? Cos I want Grace had more time with u.. But no one know that 我的用意。。

[5]Fans Club - 一个人handle fans club is not easy for me.. I had always think for ur fans club members. U know what I had done for ur fans club & even remind u, when is ur fans bdae? I had always want to keep ur fans club very firm & strong.. Cos I want them to know wat is call LOVELIES, Love everyone & Love U.. How much ur fans had mistaken of me, backstab me, I can just close 1 eyes.. I told myself, 我多忍3 weeks. "U R The One" will end 15/06/2008.. 不管以后你的fans will still support u or not? I will plan for the "Thanks & memoeries" gathering on 21/06.. 这是我最后能为你们做的。。　有谁明白我的真诚& 用心？

[6]付出&在乎 - Pew & Delphine 知道我在乎& 付出了很多，很多，很多。。从一开始，我从来没有要求你对我的回报。　因为我心中有爱。。我爱你这个朋友，我真的在乎你这个朋友，很怕失去我们的友情。也许，每个人对友情不一样。。我属于那种对友情很真，很真。。只希望自己的best friend happy..Pew had the same feeling with me, cos she had the same feeling with Keely.. Like me & u..

[7]感激－我是一个懂的去感激，如果人家对我好，我会记得。。我不会忘恩不义。。　有人说我, dun know how to appreciate. Those who had said that to me, U R WRONG. U dun know me WELL ENOUGH..

[8]友情－Qiuting, 不管以后我们的友情会不会长久？我只想说的，我身为你的好朋友，　我真的已经尽力了帮你做。。　

**最后，我想说的是，我好想30/05不要去, 因为我不想看到Grace 又找东西，刺激我。。Like today @ theatre, she keep wearing the mask, walk here & there at in front of my eyes.. Pls loh.. Grace, u thought I dun know u got go 30/05.. I just dun want to say anything. So, I really choice to dun want to go.. Do anyone know how i feeling inside?**